Geez, I’m rarely coming on here now. I have been making a lot of new decisions in life and I most certainly know what I want. My family won’t agree with all of it, but I want new things and that means that not everyone will be happy. No one likes change after all.
I got new ideas rattling in my mind for drawing and writing, I am hoping to get back to some stories I left half done because of school. I still do reviews here of comic books I read, and my drawings are posted here. For some process shots, go to my instagram.
In a different topic I seem to be losing friends, which is always fun, but I don’t know how to handle something if people don’t talk to me. If you guys ever have trouble with someone, please talk to them, the uncertainty is not fun.
Anyways, I am hungry so I am off to make some food and then get back to some drawings I am in the middle of.
I think I might have cut off a witch in traffic at some point, I am cursed to never chill with anyone.
My friend said I have to be nice, but not be nice to girls to get them to like me…that’s too much work!
I’m the only one in my family that isn’t in a relationship…thank goodness, no drama!
Slowly I have become anti-social
I don’t have much of a problem with talking to people, but I find no point on effort in a lot of situations. I have made a lot of great friendships but most have always gone downhill. I don’t want what I put into a friendship to be 95%. A friendship isn’t supposed to be work, and honestly I am tired of it being that way. Today I was invited somewhere but I didn’t go because there were gonna be other people that I didn’t know involved so why the fuck even go.
I am happy with my life, I am used to being alone but don’t fake a friendship if you don’t want to make one.
It’s time to start deleting people that have no importance.
Story time.
He laid there without a compulsion to strive for anything
No one would care what happened
no one would really notice
after all isn’t he just someone who will drift by everyone’s life without a notice
he has just become tired of being the outcast
not like he hasn’t tried to change that
but everyone gets bored of him, after all what is there intriguing about a typical guy
if he is ignored is there really a point to what he really wants
there is no such thing as friends, or love, or trust, or loyalty.
So what else is there to do but to lay there and continue the conundrum that is his life.
After all, it doesn’t revolve around anything.
Yesterday seemed to be a bad day for me.
I was very angry all day, my brother tried to argue with me and I practically almost went nuts, sort of like Hulk. I went to the movies and did not laugh at a comedy. I deleted a whole bunch of people from multiple websites since they aren’t actually friends.
I am so very tired of being the one to always message people, every friendship I have had has been 1 sided. Why allow people in my life if they don’t put any effort to allow me to be a part of theirs.
I’m not even angry today I’m just…complacent.
I need to get back to finding comfort in being alone again.
Emotions
Usually my feelings during live action emotional scenes
But then come the cartoon emotional scenes and its more like
When you smile at a girl…
What it feels like
But you actually look like this
